domingo, 1 de julio de 2018

Incesto intermitente


Dolor en las articulaciones. Pesadillas. Cansancio en los ojos. Dolor muscular. Un nudo en el estómago. Palpitaciones. Llorar a diario. Miedo. Tristeza. Desamparo. Autolesiones.

Paro. Una cuenta corriente que no para de bajar. Dependencia económica familiar. Replantearte volver a la prostitución. Escapar del hogar.

No te creen. Te culpabilizan. Tener que convivir con ellos.

Una vida victimizada, un círculo que se retroalimenta y que parece que nunca se acaba, que no se puede escapar.

Faltan cinco días para la boda. Me siento a escribir para desahogarme y soy incapaz de hilar varias palabras juntas. Bloqueo emocional. Disociación. Algunas secuelas vuelven, otras se intensifican y reaparecen por más tiempo.

Expediente académico brillante al finalizar el máster. Acabar con tus ahorros para titularte. Seguir sin trabajo. Replantearte volver a migrar.

Incesto intermitente. Parálisis y huida. 






I wanna turn those blue lights into strobe lights
Not blue flashing lights, maybe fairy lights
Those blue lights into strobe lights
Maybe even fairy lights, not blue flashing lights
Don't you run when you hear the sirens coming
When you hear the sirens coming you'd better not run
'Cause the sirens not coming for you
What have you done? You went to school that day
Was a bit late, but it wasn't Monday
Kept at the class for answering back
You apologized, then you were coming out
What have you done?
(Into strobe lights) There's no need to run 
(Not blue flashing lights)If you've done nothing wrong 
Blue lights should just pass you by (maybe even fairy lights)
Gun crime into your right and
Drugs and violence into your left
Before our headphones flooding 
The order into a subconscious waves you accept
You're sitting on the fall back home
(Where you're at G answer your phone?)
Pulls the poison to answer his message
Your voice sounds rush, fists for his adolescent
What have you done?
(Into strobe lights) There's no need to run 
(Not blue flashing lights) If you've done nothing wrong
Blue lights should just pass you by (maybe even fairy lights)
Tall black shadow as you're getting off the bush
Shadow shows no emotion, so what's even the fuzz?
But the face saw you boy cause a darker picture
Of the red handed actees gonna whisper
No blood, I'm sorry 'cause I know you got my back
He was running, I couldn't think I had to get out of there
Not long ago, you and ? into the shook ones
Now what's really is part two, 'cause you're the shook one
Hands you the tool as you question your friendship
Has man like you gonna make me a convict?
Never never felt, when I've done nothing wrong
Blood on my hands, but I don't know where it's from, oh
You got blood on your hands, but you don't know where it's from
You'd better run when you hear the sirens coming
When you hear the sirens coming
Better run when you hear the sirens coming 
'Cause they will be coming for you
Run when you hear the sirens coming
Better run when you hear the sirens coming
When you hear the sirens coming
The blue lights are coming for you
What have you done?
(Into strobe lights) There's no need to run 
(Not blue flashing lights) If you done nothing wrong
Blue lights should just pass you by hmm (maybe even fairy lights)
Run when you hear the sirens coming
Don't you run when you hear the sirens coming
Run when you hear the sirens coming
Don't you run when you hear the sirens coming
What have you done
Don't you run
Don't you run
Don't you run when you hear the sirens coming